So I think that Bobby has decided our relationship is over. I think the reason he keeps telling me it's not official is to let me down slowly. He acts like we're friends in texts and what not. I just don't think he fully understands how hard this is for me.
He has had eight months to get comfortable with the idea that we're not together. He thinks our relationship is going to slip into friendship and everything will be hunky dorey. I wish I could find a way to show him that ending our relationship isn't that simple.
The other problem is that he's been lying to me for months about happy he was. Just to one day crush my whole world and say it's all been a lie. If he did change his mind, how could I ever believe him again.
Today he said that he was sorry that he was happy without me. I always thought he was happy, so I never had a chance to make him happy. Lately, I'm just going through phases of crying, followed by rage. Fun is had by all.
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